Tears of the Granny

As I laid in the floor that night watching my grandmother taking every labored breath, I started to reminisce about my own mother. When Courtney was a baby she wrote her a letter and at the end she drew a little picture with tears dropping down and a note that said, "Tears of the Granny". I thought it was sweet but kind of silly because I didn't understand. Then, as if a light bulb were turned on, it occurred to me-this is how she felt about Courtney and how my granny felt about me.

We often get wrapped up in the outward appearances of love and we forget that our hearts hold more love than can be expressed. My grandmother wasn't a very clingy or outwardly affectionate woman-don't get me wrong, she was a hugger- but she always made me feel more than loved by the way she spoke to me. Her wisdom far exceeded her years. She gave me tips on make-up, on being an independent woman, and of course, men. I followed her advice on most things, but let's face it, I was a teenager and most things went right in my ears and out my big bubble head!

My mom was the other kind of granny-wanting to be near you, hugging and kissing, and making my kids smile. She passed away in 2000 but her memory lives on in me and my family. These two women possessed many loving qualities that I will in turn pass on to my grandbaby, for now I understand the tears of the granny.

My grandmother passed away on November 18, 2011 and has gone home to be with the Lord. Once again, God in His infinite wisdom, helped her to invite Jesus into her heart less than a week before her passing! How glorious it must be for her right now to be praising the one true King. Completely free from pain, from death, and from tears. Walking the streets of gold, talking and walking to the One that gave her life. God is so faithful!

I will be home soon granny and momma! I love you both.

“Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world." John 17:24